Mood:..feeling not so good

Listening To: Adema -- *Everyone*


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...I have been drawing--but my scanner doesn't work. So that sucks. School has been pressuring -- I'm failing WAy behind. Missing TOO many days. And being so called "rebelious" by not doing homework and being late to class...actually for the past days I've been freakin' earrllyy...that was kool. today I stayed home bcuz i have an ear infection -- sucks really. oh well *shrugs* get to listen to music, do some hw that I didn't finish bcuz PROCRASNTINATION and go on internet...funnnesss...that's what I did---except the homework part and it's now 6:52 PM...whatevvvaa...I'll get it done >_> I hope...ha... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell. Not much else --- everything has been so frustrating. I hate it. Not many know (actually I don't think anybody but a few know) I'm on the road to becomnig an *alcoholic*...yes, I'm a drinker. I do bcuz it helps me cope with things -- rather than smoking or drugs I'd rather drink myself to darkness and pass out every now and then....it makes me feel better.

plus it helps my insomnia...I've been an insomniac for 3 years now...or even more... drinking helps me -- its hard to explain -- I just can't live without it. Same with my friend -- she's already an alcoholic. I don't pity myself. I don't really care. Just anything to *help* except for smoking and drugs..I'm not THAT stupid people. ohhhhh well. Thats all for now.<3333 --- its not like anybody reads this shit anyway huh?

figures...


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The One and Only,
Shinigami (Shini-chan)